I don’t know why I feel like I need some excuse for why I haven’t been writing here lately. I think about it everyday. Every.single.day. I haven’t quite decided if it is because I want and need to do more free writing/blogging and I simply love it, or because I am not doing, it I am letting myself down. Regardless, I am starting over. I have way too many thoughts to not let them stream freely. So here goes today’s:
Coming from a person with a fairly creative mind (or one I consider to hold some ounce of the sort) I jump at every single opportunity that seems like it will further my career, creatively. This professional move could potentially give me the experience I need to follow my dreams? Sounds simple. However, why is that when I finally get the chance to do exactly this, my personal creativity takes the back-burner? Why is it so difficult to join the creativity stream of another’s dreams and simultaneously manage my own? The part of my brain that meshes creativity with common sense and decision-making necessary in any professional environment, overpowers the part of my brain that creatively combines my passions, goals, and dreams. Does this make sense? Creativity A is overpowering Creativity B in my brain, it it has got to stop.
From here on out, I am attempting to fix this. I am in a turning point where things can either go up or down, one way or another—everything is truly what I make of them. I am going to be my best self, whatever that may involve. I should be happy, and that just may involve saying “no” to some things, and yes, to blogging here and pretending anyone is even reading this. :)
Disclaimer: I am having a great week, full of clean-up-your-life activities (including this post), so this idea is coming quite naturally. This isn’t always so easy. I may need to revisit this post a time or two (in the next couple hours) just to calm my anxious nerves. However, I hope in writing this it may inspire others to clean up your life of the little things that may stress you out- the emails that need to be sent to an old friend, the responsibility that you rather not have on your back, or just the kitchen that needs to be cleaned (this one is still on my list) in order to be happy and inspired.
By inspiring myself, I hope to inspire you.
Just a little donkey ponderin’ his future.